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Saturday, April 12th, 2008
5:42 pm - HEY!
Whirligigs Final Concert
Saturday May 3, 2008
8pm

Come, or else I'll fuck you up because it is my last one. With the same theme as my first one. It better sound fucking good, and you all better be there to hear it!

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Wednesday, April 9th, 2008
4:07 pm - today, community court can lick my anus
everyone and their effing mother knows this place is going to shit. everyone does and yet they think it is necessary for me to complete the equivalent of a freaking research project on the cases from the last five years. BALLS.......

i hate fucking comps. they too can lick some other unfortunate part of my body.

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Monday, April 7th, 2008
3:08 pm - i'm going to the woods, i'm going to the woods, i'm going....
TO GET EATEN BY A BEAR!!!!


shit.

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Monday, January 28th, 2008
9:34 am
PHHHUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKK. FUCK. CLADDY SOON. DSMNDAMN DSMAN

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Monday, January 14th, 2008
12:14 am - i am angry
i cannot sleep, i cannot sleep ever. i cant sleep because every time i lay down and close my eyes there are so many pictures behind them my head can't rest. it just can't and my stomach is in my throat which just so happens to make me nauseous all of the time. all of the time. not very many years ago i thought about things very differently. i ate regularly and i slept at night and i got up every day and i liked myself. i am angry and mean. i snap at people and i'm scared to be honest and a lot of people who did love me don't anymore because we don't actually love each other, we just take "one another for who we are." we don't expect things because that would mean accountability and honesty and unconditional love and time. it doesn't mean ignoring downfalls and mistakes and drifting apart. once upon a time i was like hilary fay, but i made crafts and i loved people and i cried in hallways because it was what i did. and i meant it. and i was good at it. i sit in meetings now, i keep my mouth shut and i cry alone because then nobody is let down, and i'm not "being a bad example." i don't mean to be shit, this must sound so ungrateful, but i haven't even gone back yet and i'm tired. it hasn't even started yet and i am cleaning up someone else's mistake and having meetings. i don't want to have been unkind, i just want to be good.

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Sunday, December 30th, 2007
7:27 pm
ENOUGH of florida.

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Monday, December 3rd, 2007
10:00 pm - LIKE AN ARCTIC TUNDRA!!!
it is cold outside! its almost over here!!!

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Saturday, November 24th, 2007
11:12 am
dearest laura tennen, i cant wait to see your short lovely self oh sooooo soonly!! yay!

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Sunday, November 4th, 2007
1:26 am - what a beautiful letdown
lay it all out.

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Monday, October 29th, 2007
8:16 am - most things freeze at 32 degrees, potentially, i am one of them.
there is no heat in the room. i hate this place. i miss my dodge room. it was mine and it smelled like me. it was my space and if anyone pissed me off, i had my space to go to. now i'm pissed off and dont worry, i live in it. i miss my big bed and my old computer. i miss my floor and my suite and my cade right next door and ryan right above me. i hate the smell of old people and thats all this wretched building smells like.

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Sunday, October 21st, 2007
11:19 pm
if we keep on the way we are, one day we'll all kill each other will our hate. until then, i'll listen to sonny and cher.

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Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
2:29 pm
it is terrifying outside. it is dark and the wind is blowing hard and lightning keeps flashing and theres lots and lots of thunder. leaves are falling alomost as much as the rain and it feels good to be inside. i love all of my windows.

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Monday, October 1st, 2007
3:30 pm - begin rant:
I DO NOT WANT TO WRITE A THESIS. I DONT WANT TO. I WANT TO QUIT NOW AND BE DONE. IT SEEMS ALMOST WORTH NOT GRADUATING. I HATE WRITING. I AM BAD AT IT AND IT DOESNT LIKE ME MUCH EITHER. I DONT WANT TO DO IT. I DONT I DONT I DONT. DAMN IT.

end rant. now i'll begin reading. i understadn all of this is immature and unnecessary and wasteful and ungrateful.

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Sunday, September 16th, 2007
10:44 am
this place is just not what it used to be and i am sad. i know everyone has said it a million times before but i cant help being so so sad and a whole lot angry

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Saturday, September 15th, 2007
9:44 am - i think the weather does this to me
its cool out and beautiful. it makes me think of everywhere i was before, in my head anyway. i feel all funny and shit. i dont like it and i feel old and weird and i need to clean my poom.its funny how you get what you want and in the end it just feels off

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Tuesday, July 31st, 2007
1:10 pm - i am not sorry i made the decision i did. and stuck by it.
i like growing things. i like gardening. i like being tired and dirty and hot and accomplished. it is rewarding and beautiful. i cannot wait to move and get settled.

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Friday, July 20th, 2007
10:02 pm
having a backbone is invalid when its existence only happens in easy times. everyone is sad, nobody is going to be okay when we dont play. taking a stand isnt supposed to be easy and the injustice is clear. in all honesty, im a little sad by all of our inability to stick by our word. speak slowly and dont say it if you dont mean it.

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Thursday, July 12th, 2007
10:13 am
"many women want to be carnal with me because i am a premium dancer"

in other news i got a strange email today from some woman who said she saw me on a wells student blog and all this other strange nonsense. i hope its a practical joke. work is long. im tired.

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Thursday, June 28th, 2007
10:13 am - aurora is slow like my mind
it hot here. and i'm sweaty. last night a group of dories girls and i went to mccluskys to watch little miss sunshine outside on the lawn. that movie is real funny! in other news, the perk is gone for real. he is going to take another job somewhere else and wells is hurting me bunches. i asked lyn labar how she slept at night the other day. she got angry at me but i dont care cause she is a straight up anus. i'm tired because i work lots and i dont have any good stories to tell except that i'm getting really good at that game taboo and yes, it does make me proud. and also, i'm going to water heinekamos garden!

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Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007
7:06 pm
this is going to eat me alive before it is all over. im losing myself from the inside out and im mildly neurotic.

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